Thread:AzureKnight2008/@comment-1916698-20170926153556/@comment-30866120-20171014231119

Hmm... Again, thank you very much for letting me take my time. (smiles gently)

''What have you managed to learn from that conversation between Ozunu-sama & Zenki? And then, between granny Saki & Zenki? :)''

Conversation between Ozunu and my past self

Summary:

Ozunu basically tells my past self, that I shouldn't go and just Rudra everything and everyone I meet. Then I don't want to listen to him, but Ozunu tells me how easily Rudra could kill me. I refuse again and even insult him, but bein' the calm and wise man, we was, he ignores my insulting words and repeats, that I shouldn't use Rudra again, to which I keep responding by refusing to do as he says.

My thoughts:

Yeah, I know... (facepalms)

Back then, I had the body of a grown demon god, but the mind of a little boy, who just won't listen to his elder, though the elder just means well for me and doesn't want me to get hurt.

My younger self only sees him restricting my freedom by forbidding me to use Rudra, eventhough Ozunu doesn't restrict my freedom, he only wants to protect me from harm.

Conversation between Saki, Chiaki and my past self

Summary:

Saki calls Chiaki and my past self over, so she can talk to us in private. Jukai and Kuribayashi are sent away, so they take care of Miki Souma instead.

Saki shows Chiaki an old, grey book, presumably written by Ozunu, that covers Rudra. Then, Saki talks about my battle against a Hyouijuu that happened earlier on and I don't want to talk about it. Chiaki doesn't know what Rudra is supposed to be and asks Saki, who starts telling her about it. Jukai and Kuribayashi are seen relaxing outside the shrine and talking about what a nice day it is.

Saki tells Chiaki, that I have "an extremely powerful force called Rudra" and that she forgot about it, but then remembered and found some writings about it. Chiaki walks over to me and basically asks me, why I didn't use Rudra to protect her from harm, if I have such a great, hidden power. Then I question her intentions and think, she's only nice to make me help her, only to abandon me afterwards. Then she is shocked and we start fighting each other, but are stopped by Saki, who tells Chiaki, that I don't use Rudra all the time, cause it would hurt me pretty badly and might even kill me, if I did.

Then Chiaki understands and Saki tells her, that I uses Rudra before Ozunu sealed me. I react with a little, ironic remark and Saki says, that Ozunu basically saved my life by nursing me back to health from the brink of death after usin' Rudra. Then I get angry, because what she just said means, that I owe Ozunu my life and I didn't like the idea of owing anything to a human, even if it was Ozunu. Then Saki basically tells me the same as Ozunu and adds, that Ozunu couldn't save me again, because he's dead.

My thoughts:

Ironically, I don't even know, which Hyouijuu she is talking about anymore... ^^' (which may be for the better or the worse...) o.O

I think, she might be referring to the Hyouijuu back from Ozunu's times, though.

Hmm... Rudra...

Very, very powerful, but also very, very deadly...

(looks away)

Of cause, I know what she means by "double-edged sword". Especially after the whole thing, that Semerone told me, that you told her about. I mean the whole, my soul is light, but my body is darkness thing, which only changed once I reached my Cho Kishin form.

Using Rudra came back to bite me in my behind at least twice, if not thrice... I definitely remember, though, that in my battle against Anjura, it was the coin toss between being gravely wounded or death and in my later battle against Hiki, I met my demise.

Luckily, Goki was there to fix this, but I understand, that I can't always rely on Goki to bring me back to live or Goki/Chiaki to heal my wounds.

Hehehe! Chiaki and myself fighting each other as we used to, eh?

She didn't know any better and I still had my "I don't care about what happens to humanity"-attitude. (LOL and facepalm)

Well... Right now, seeing my past selves comment "Chiaki is only nice to me, if she needs me" and Chiaki's reaction to it just makes me laugh. Hahaha!

Don't misunderstand me. It's... it's just. I totally reflects how much I have changed over the course of time.

I mean, if Chiaki knew, how dangerous using Rudra is for me, she would probably get all sad and tell me, that I must not use Rudra ever again, just like Ozunu and Saki did. Of cause, if I listened to her in that situation, would be up to me, but Chiaki cared about my safety in the past (and still does now) and my past self just didn't realize, I think.

I only saw the mean Chiaki, who is always hitting me and fighting me and restricting my freedom, when she only wanted me to behave and cared about my safety... (sad sigh and ears drop)

Also, I realized something.

Ozunu must have sealed me, because I was so gravely injured, that, while he was able to nurse me back to health, I was probably still in a shape, where I couldn't fight and would have definitely died, if I ended up in battle, so he sealed me, so I could fully recover and return with all of my strength instead of my life ending right there.

In retrospect, I am thankful, that he did this. My past self and his attitude towards humans, obviously would never have understood this.

''My past self was all like: "No, the old man is going to restrict my freedom and won't me allow to use Rudra and show my true power to these Hyouijuu anymore!" (when he told me not to use Rudra again) and then "No, the old man has sealed me and now I'm stuck for the next, I don't know how many years!" (when he sealed me to protect me) and then "This girl is the descendant of the dumb old man, that sealed me? If he isn't there anymore, his descendant is gonna pay, for what he did to me!" (when Chiaki freed me)''

(lets out a manly cuckle and facepalms again)

Now, I fully understand, what happened there.

And Saki... she was very respectful towards me and cared about me, too, but she warned me, that Ozunu couldn't save me anymore for obvious reasons.

Hmm...

I actually mentioned the Sairousaiko one there, because from my point of view, I saw, that Sairousaiko believed, that I was dead, as he might have known the whole "I was badly injured and Ozunu sealed me"-story and "me being (inside) a rock" equaled "me being dead" for the Hyouijuu, who carried the story from one generation to the next, till young Sairousaiko met me...

That was my thought.