Thread:Mixed talk/@comment-30866120-20181011161327/@comment-27493717-20181022122921

Alright guys.

I was and still am very worried as well, but not about myself, but what you guys might feel like, if something happens to me.

So, the doctor found out, that a part of my intestines have grown togehter with one of my ovaries, which means, I have endometriosis. This is an illness, which only girls or women can have, but fact is, that my ovulation caused my intestines to get torn open and me bleeding so much, that I felt very weak and tired and had to stay in bed for a few days. Today, I am still feeling very messed up and my head is aching.

If the doctors can fix me when they do the biopsy, I might feel better than ever. If the biopsy fails or they reschedule it too often, I might die from the blood loss.

Now I wonder, if it's wierd, that I am more worried about my friends and my family, than myself when I might die...?

I am not afraid of death, but of leaving everyone behind in a sad and depressed state. :'(

Right now, Zenki and my parents are looking after me, but they can't do too much about it. Nonetheless, I still apprechiate them being there for me.

(sends virtual hugs to everyone)