Thread:Zenki7/@comment-30866325-20170501201608/@comment-30866120-20170501203239

Pride and Love
Thanks. (nods)

I totally agree with what you said and understand what you mean.

Heh. It's funny how much I clinged to my pride back in the past, eventhough it was only the crumbly "building with no basement"-kind, you were talking about right now.

Maybe, I was just too scared to open up to someone after feeling betrayed by Ozunu and the Enno bloodline.

You also know how I reacted to Semerone, when she asked me to open up, the other day. She really trusted me and believed, that I was ready to take the next step, but I wasn't and attacked her.

I didn't act like a man or even a demon god. I acted like a trapped, wild animal.

Intead of gently nuzzling the hand, that fed me and accepting the gift, I bit her, because I felt scared.

Fear struck into the deepest depths of my heart. A fear way beyond death. The fear of being rejected.

It has always been there and I bet you knew about it, too. But one has to understand my feelings and the reasons for my actions to know about it.

Someone, who simply sees my reaction and judges me without asking why, will never see my true nature. They will always treat me like a threating animal that needs to be chained up and sealed away instead of treating me with the love and care I need.

I am so happy, I encountered Semerone.

I don't know what I would have done without her accepting me for who I am in the deepest depths of my heart instead of just scratching the surface like everyone else...

(sniff - turns away while tears roll down his face)